It had been a long time since I’d been on a college sideline as a coach. After 10 years of being a high school head coach, I was excited to be back and I was relieved to see the clock tick to zeros in a 45-13 season opening win. The entire coaching staff and every player had put tremendous effort into preparing for our opener and the final score reflected a great night for us all. As I walked off the field, I couldn’t help but notice the smiling fans, the players chatting with friends and family members and the general sense of happiness that permeated the home stadium. I also felt a sense of accomplishment but the more palpable feeling was that of relief accompanied by mental and physical exhaustion. In all honesty, I felt disappointed in the fact that I was not as jovial as those around me. The question I had to ask myself is why? Had the joys of competing and winning been
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